Friday's Fashion

Today was casual... just needed something simple & comfy to run around town in! I mixed & matched flannel plaid with glitter leggings & my "cowboy" wedges! Now that's Texas SASS <3 Happy Friday! xoxo

Thankful

I LOVE Thanksgiving but it comes and goes so quickly! Just reflecting on our meal, our beautiful table set by my mom, the formal dining room we sat in that is truly "extra" square footage, the friends that joined us for dinner, and the many blessings that so many people in this world don't have. I am truly a lucky lady! God has blessed me greatly <3

Business trip down memory lane

I'm blessed to have a job where I can pick up & go schedule appointments in other cities. So, I do! I love being in my car, windows down & music up... for some reason it's the only place in life where I feel like I can escape & I'm just in control. Right now, there are lots of things out of my control in life, and the older you get, sometimes, the more you long for the simple time when you were young.
I know there are reasons my life changed the way it did when I moved, but there will always be a part of me that misses Kingwood so much. I've been praying for an opportunity to go there & just reminisce, just drive around without an agenda, without anyone else, just me & where I grew up. My prayers were answered when I was able to schedule a big Mary Kay party in Houston, with an old friend from Kingwood... it was totally unexpected but such a blessing!
After my party, I drove to Kingwood. I started crying as soon as I crossed the railroad tracks. And then I cried more as I drove past landmarks from my life like my church, my elementary & middle schools, the house I grew up in, the greenbelts I played on & the "pink house" of my dreams that I would someday live in... which isn't pink anymore btw, huge disappointment!
I miss it. I miss the trees & the greenbelts & the houses. I miss my home. I miss my relationships with people in Kingwood. I miss feeling at home there. I'm beyond thankful for my life to this point & the blessings that have come from my move 13 years ago, but there will always one true "home" to me, and that's it. And sometimes you just have to go see it & remember.
I wish I could have spent more time there. I had plans to visit River Grove & eat at J. Christoper's, but I plan on saving some things until Chris is able to come with me. It's probably good that he was busy working & I took the trip by myself; I feel like it's what I've needed lately. People can say they don't know me & I've changed or whatever, but I haven't. I know where I came from. And I think perhaps the reason I've missed physically being in Kingwood is because I finally mentally left Kingwood. That probably doesn't make sense to anyone but me... but idk, maybe it does. Things will never be the same & maybe I'm finally accepting that. Yeah, finally, after 13 years; some things affect people in ways you can't imagine because it's simply not the way it affects you (idk a lot of people that cry over a move the y had to make when they were 15, but I do, still). I don't think anyone will ever understand my story except me, and that's ok. But just because people move on, it doesn't mean you don't know them, it doesn't mean they've changed, it just means maybe they've finally found their path in life.
Mine started in Kingwood & has taken me elsewhere. But I always come home & back to where I started. My struggle in life now is looking at those memories fondly instead of longing for my life to be THAT any longer. I spent a lot of time being resentful instead of opening my eyes to a life that God was willing to offer me. Maybe I'm finally realizing there's a bigger & better plan. Maybe I lost my faith for a long time, and maybe it's coming back stronger than ever. Maybe at the age of 29, I'm finally starting to realize that the biggest blessings in life come from the biggest tragedies, or what seem to be tragedies at the time.
I have lived my life safe up to this point, but no longer. I can visit my past but not dwell on the things that could have been, but my God, Cassie, don't you see how much better it is now? Don't you trust that God knows far better than you?! I can visit, I can reminisce, but now I can choose to no longer be sad. And when I need to go to Kingwood & think back to my simple, spoiled life, I can. But I don't need to cling to it.
I don't care if I don't make sense or I'm not predictable anymore. I'm me. I have opinions, I have feelings, I have struggles as well as triumphs. I have FAITH. I have a God that loves me and a blessed life no matter what comes my way. I don't understand my life right now, just like I didn't understand the move back then. But I'm pretty sure 10-15 years down the road, I'll look back at where I'm living now and the life that's been happening,  and I'll know it was all leading to my even better life in the future. Just keep going, Cassie, don't look back. And pray. And trust.

Happy Veterans Day!

My favorite veteran, my best friend, my soul mate, the love of my life... my hero <3 Thank you to all of our veterans! God bless you & our great country!

Unique style

Laying here in bed, about to fall asleep and all of a sudden it hits me... I have a lava lamp and a chandelier in the same room. My bedroom truly is eclectic... Texas Sass style ;-)
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Trust yourself; Trust GOD

God put a dream in your heart for you and you alone! Listen to yourself! Listen to that gut feeling; pay attention to those daydreams! HE would never give you a dream that HE didn't give you the ability to achieve <3